Reinventing Heather

“Today” In this past year that now seems like a complete blur, I have gone through every day never really knowing if I was going to be able to make it to the next. Losing the greatest love of my life has proven to be the most difficult loss I have ever suffered to date. I have buried my first daughter who was stillborn, lost all three of my grandparents, several aunts – all in their 40s, and some beloved friends and former teachers. I thought I was prepared for anything. I thought that having gone through more than my fair share of grief, that I was going to be ok with whatever life threw at me. Boy! Was I ever wrong! Losing your person is probably the worst possible grief anyone can suffer. You lose everything when they die. Your daily existence – every hour of the day – is affected by this profound loss. It is crippling. I don’t think I got out of bed for a few weeks after John died. People would stop by and I told them to just come in to my room because I wasn’t getting out o

One year….one.whole.year.  I cannot understand how it can possibly be an entire year since my sweet John and I were married. This day, March 10, 2017, we were so happy! SO very happy! We were getting ready to drive 2 and a half hours to a little mountain town to elope!! We had already planned our dream honeymoon to Europe to take place in September and we were going to wait until just before leaving on that to stop by the courthouse and get married. Neither of us wanted to wait that long, though. So, we decided to elope to Hailey and have a mini-honeymoon at an historic Bed & Breakfast. I bought myself a very simple blush colored dress and bought John a new shirt and tie that matched his navy jacket and my dress. I booked the judge for 3:00pm, found a florist that made my bouquet and John’s boutonniere, and found a photographer to come for about an hour to take photos of the ceremony and a few of us after. March 10 was a beautiful, bright sunny almost spring day aft