Today
“Today” In this past year that now seems like a complete blur, I have gone through every day never really knowing if I was going to be able to make it to the next. Losing the greatest love of my life has proven to be the most difficult loss I have ever suffered to date. I have buried my first daughter who was stillborn, lost all three of my grandparents, several aunts – all in their 40s, and some beloved friends and former teachers. I thought I was prepared for anything. I thought that having gone through more than my fair share of grief, that I was going to be ok with whatever life threw at me. Boy! Was I ever wrong! Losing your person is probably the worst possible grief anyone can suffer. You lose everything when they die. Your daily existence – every hour of the day – is affected by this profound loss. It is crippling. I don’t think I got out of bed for a few weeks after John died. People would stop by and I told them to just come in to my room because I wasn’t getting out o